Oftentimes man is faced with challenges on his path, sometimes it’s a smooth ride and other times it’s the roughest of all .
Sometimes the mind is burdened with the affairs of the soul and the being in its entirety…
It’s part of being human, burdened is part of being human.
The urge and need to pour out and express the emotion that was once suppressed in the heart is also part of that natural characteristic of human.
Sometimes, its gets so hard to hold on to that smile on your lips, you begin to wonder how long you could go on playing hard, you wonder how long this mask would last before falling off and your emotions would then be bare… you wonder how long you’d last before finally breaking down to the least point, you wonder how long you’d last before your weaknesses take over, you wonder how long it’ll take to finally exhale the last breath as though everything will finally end with death…
Sometimes it’s as though the heart is overwhelmed with burden it’s hard to breath, sometimes the lips wished they were asked what was wrong so they could speak… sometimes we just wanna talk hoping that someone at least listens, and understand every word spoken.
But then even in trying to let out those emotions imprisoned in the heart, some emotions can be so strong and deep we’d run short of words to describe what we are feeling… then we find ourselves speechless, but the eyes are still sore with tears, we began to wish that there are words at least with which these suppressed emotions could be described so the mortal man that has chosen to listen could at least understand what we are saying or trying to say… but the mortal man can only listen, he can only comprehend little of what was expressed, he can neither heal nor soothe… verily the keys to the forces of the universe is not Man’s to be possessed, so our fault then is in who we have chosen to pour out our hearts to, the drug to every heartache lies in finding who the keys to the forces of the heart is with, once the Ultimate and ideal owner is found, then ease and relief is nigh and every grief or that seemingly prolonged ache suddenly is as though it were a mere sigh, that lasted not longer than a short while!
When we find the Owner at last, the heart recognises Him immediately and therefore swims merrily in the company of its Owner, for the Owner is with whom lies the keys to the heart and only then can the heart be opened up so its hurt and burden be annihilated; verily the heart finds serenity in His company, every other companion other than Him can neither heal the heart nor rid it of its burdens… and the Owner is Allah, He is Allah!
When the body is overwhelmed with its affairs, and given a chance to taste its own helplessness, blessed be that heart that inspires and then moves the rest of the body towards the doors of the Most Merciful…
The limbs are then brought forth to this door only to find the doors already opened, with the forces of the heart readily ushered into the realm of tranquility, ease and also certainty that He is more merciful to you than you are to yourself, the doors were never shut nor slammed against a face calling for help at the time of adversity… such is Your Lord, Allah the Raheem!
The hands are then raised up to Him that feels so shy to let these raised hands be returned empty; the voice is raised in Dua to He that is closer than the jugular vein; the eyes sight is blurred with tears of emotions that only the heart truly understands, then finally the heart is laid by the feet of the Most Merciful so to be taken in, reformed and healed at last!
The words flowed out so well you begin to wonder why you have chosen to suffer in silence for so long, you could have voiced out, verily someone listen and heals all hurt. When we find ourselves speechless, unable to find the right words with which these emotions could be expressed….
Then you’d discover that unlike the mortal man, your Lord can look into the deepest parts of your heart and translate every emotion you are trying to express; and it becomes as though you throw yourself helplessly at His merciful feet saying ‘Oh Lord! Look into my heart and read every word, for I find no words to express my emotions better’.
Then you discover that you are not informing Him of anything new, By Allah He was never neglectful of you, not even for a blink of an eye… on the contrary you have been neglectful of yourself, but your Lord isn’t!
At that point you realised how far you’ve distanced yourself from Him, how far you’ve strayed from home; at this point again you finally understand that your hurt only resulted from your being neglectful of yourself, you finally realised you were not merciful to yourself, and the hurt was like a path that could lead you back home to Him… verily He is your home!
At last you are home, oh how far you have tarried away from home!
You finally let out everything you’ve nursed within, though it seemed as though it was just you in the room but you could’ve sworn it’s the best conversation you’ve had your whole life, you felt He was so close… so close you were dissolved in His warm merciful embrace… you are then left with untainted certainty that you have beside you the Most Powerful and reliable ally, He becomes your Protector, your Director, your Doctor, your Guardian, your Healer… Allah becomes you True friend upon whom you can rely with full certainty that He’s got your back!
It’s a new dawn, but this dawn was experienced too in your heart… it’s your heart’s dawn finally!
Out into the world you come, with every step you take your lips are adorned with a cheerful smile, and the eyes reflects your heart’s glows… you walk with such assurance cus you were heard last night and what burdened you before now was laid by the doors of the Most Merciful, your heart’s hurt has been annihilated!
The eyes were glowing not because they were devoid of hearty tears; the lips are adorned with smile not because they are devoid of adversity’s sighs; the heart maybe endowed with such richness and sweetness not because it has never been hurt or disappointed… verily the eyes has cried, but to He that returns every gaze of helplessness, verily the lips has sighed overwhelmed with the affairs of the whole being but the tongue has related its affairs to He that listens and understand, verily the heart has ached from hurt that once was unexpressed but it has been purged of its burdens by He that can translate every emotion and heal beyond words… the body has submitted their will to Allah, then it’s given a chance to taste contentment and serenity even amidst emotional chaos and adversity!
You are happy now because you were sad!